running was my mo
what i now know is i got triggered
something, anything
shit the mine fields were every where
a smell, a taste, a cool breeze
a laugh even a gentle hug could lead me to that tight rope
looking for ways to cope
with always being afraid
in my head planning my next escape
i ran if and when i didn’t feel safe
that was never
unless someone else shared my space
so i was always chasing safety
needing somebody to protect me
because at 6 my mama left me
home alone and never returned
yeah, that’s what i said, home alone, never returned
so, it was hard for me to adapt
to the love that was poured
it leaked out of me like sap
kept me stuck in codependency’s trap
in therapy i learned how to wrap tie and tangle that shit
i was on a mission
it was a life or death situation
i had to stop giving permission
for people to walk away with me
it was time
i knew that life would not get better without the undo
i had to travel to hell many times
to get a break through
i did whatever was necessary to heal my soul
to become complete and whole
now i want reach back and get my SisStars
see we can do this
healing together is how we will get better
we don’t need to be the next research project
we can do this behind closed doors
the world that depends on us,
the woman
to be the model of strength
always put up on
never protected
never provided for unless it served someone else’s due
we can do this
we will rise
we are rising
why
because we have each other
this time though it will not be the Iyanla or the Orpah show
we will rise like our ancestors
we will go to the wise women
be embraced and become healers
girl get you some help, so we rise together
we will destroy curses and break patterns
healing each generation one woman at a time
are you ready to heal?
i believe we can do it
if we reach out to the SisStars ready to hold us up
while we reach deep down in our soul and pull out the root
release from our bodies the fear, the pain and the fury
cry till we can’t cry anymore
gut it out from the depths of our souls
make over our minds so the negative thoughts
are not comfortable in our head space anymore
we can heal, y’all
are you ready?
are you ready to make a commitment to see what the end is going to be?
i promise you on the other side is happy
lets make a commitment to rock the future cradles without dysfunction
girl get you some help
by mozayik “the souls’ poet”
3/05/18